Currently Listening Jagged Little Pill Acoustic By Alanis Morissette see related

plotting vengeance against your enemy is not the way to go... it hurts worse when you're nice.. but unattentive.. you're nice to his/her friends and family.. but the enemy doesn't exist.. hmm...

Finished all four seasons of Smallvilee last week.. kristen kreuk.. she's a hottie.. gonna take time off.. finally.. happy to be back though..

Currently Playing No More Drama By Mary J Blige see related

..pain...

the feeling of such happiness taken away by lies.. hurts doesn't it? fucken people just don't know how to let people go.. emotions.. being played with.. it fucken sucks.. and yes.. i know.. we only get all mad and angry and say unheard of things when we're angry.. but oh well.. when you're mad..you're mad.. and when people fuck you over.. other people tend to wonder why..

it's pain.. it fucken hurts.. and i hate it.. but i've to cope with it in order to survive another day.. to watch your loved one kiss the lips of another.. or even the lips of that other around his private.. it's a shame.. a bad and lame game that people try to pay.. and lo' and behold..you didn't get away with it..

save me the pain and just leave me alone if you're going to end up fucking me over.. i was happy.. and you took that away.. and when it is time for you to feel the same pain and realize what you've missed out on.. shame.. cause i don't think i'll care enough.. oh fucken well.. i guess i'll get over it..

enough of the drama please.. thank you. =)

Currently Watching Xena Warrior Princess - Season One By Lucy Lawless see related

..the simple lake..

i was watching Xena Warrior Princess.. and anyone who watches it knows that at some point of the story or plot.. there's a moral.. such as so...

i felt the same way in the words she said..she and gabrielle were sitting by the lake.. and Xena said that she was once like the lake...calm.. steady.. and clear.. then.. she picked up a rock and threw it into the lake..

it became all rough and disturbed.. like she had become.. then gabrielle said that if you give it time.. it'll go back to being calm and steady again.. Xena replied... that it will... but the rock that cause the rough ripples and disturbance will be in the lake.. forever changed.. such a metaphor.. i loved it so much i had to write this down..

Currently Playing Beautiful People (Enhanced CD) By Marilyn Manson see related

..working hard..

most people can sure agree to have a harsh past.. and many times.. it can creep up and bite you in the ass...

so you're the cause of some majorly dramatic shit.. you've made some dumbass mistakes.. and you've admitted to it.. and have accepted them for what they are.. you learned from them.. life proceeds and the consequences have taken their tolls... you've hurt a few.. and you've been hurt yourself.. you try to move on and proceed with life...

it sucks how you past can always creep up on you... cause even though you've let things go and decide to move on.. the nut you've let go has been racking up some enemies and creating some neverending story of how you broke his heart.. why can't things just be let go? why do we have to always 'try' and work things out when nothing really gets solved... sure there are certain situations when you sit a person down.. things are actually solved.. but when you know that something is too painful to even think about.. when something just shouldn't be brought back up .. is brought to your attention once again.. why do you have to deal with it?

in most cases.. i've chosen to walk away.. and i'll admit.. that's just how i am.. i've seen enough drama to put cats to sleep and many times.. i feel it's too stupid to waste perfectly good minutes out of a lifetime... life is short.. years seem to pass within days and you'll always wonder..'what the hell did i do this week?'. so that'll explain it... i don't like the drama.. i walk away from it.. i don't need it in my life..

funny though.. how you can just laugh at those who literally pick drama... like for instance... when you like someone.. but sleep with someone else.. then write about it somewhere like xanga.... wouldn't you think it stupid enough to place something out there like that? or state that if you don't want me.. i'll find someone else who will.. and then rub it in by letting it be known? that's a bit too funny.. and dramatic.. funny..

i'm making little sense now.. so i guess i should end this..

Currently Playing Concrete Rose By Ashanti see related

..christmas shopping..

golly.. i'm finally fucken done with my christmas shopping.. i was at ala moana last night with the two boneheads.. and was up in san rio.. there i was staring at this hello kitty doll which i thought was nice as heck.. it was a wedding decor or whatever it is you actually call it... i wanted to buy it for lani.. but dang.. it's hella expensive.. but shocking oh shocking.. i was at ala moana. then i walked around a lot.. and the escalators going to hallmark was broken.. so i took my ass up the sears one cause hell no if i wanna be climbing some steps..

i think i got irritated when i was finding what i wanted.. (at a reasonable price).. so i just bought anything.. crossing people off my list.. so if i got you something and you don't like it.. tough. and if you already have it.. tough.. cause quite frankly.. i didn't need to buy yo asses some gifts.. but i was more than happy to spend a little money i don't have on you.. =) so it's cool.. but thank goodness.. i'm fucken done with shopping.

i'd list some of the things i bought.. but quite frankly.. that'd be like i'm showing off and shit.. and i'm just not like that.. unlike some people..